The opposite of insomnia

Normally, I would fall asleep so late, it would piss me off that I couldn't stay awake during class. Nowadays, I fall asleep so early, it pisses me off that I'm too tired to do my homework. Then I wake up needing more sleep and then I'm too lazy to finish my homework.

It's like a stupid chain of lack of sleep where I lose either way.

Well anyway, I'm getting back into the habit of trying to blog more often. I feel the need to frequently vent out any distracting emotions. It's like a cup. The more we fill the cup, the fuller it gets. Eventually, if it's completely full everything else will just spill out.

This is a way to just empty out my cup of water, so everything doesn't spill out.

I brought my big pink knockoff carebear today :D Everyone thought I got it from a guy. It was funny seeing people's reactions when they see someone with a stuffed animal. It's like an instant, "WHO'S THE GUY WHO GAVE IT TO YOU?!?!??!!" It was to be expected that I get bombarded with questions. It was fun.

Ohyes, and our presentation for English was today. My goodness, Thomas. You make my laugh like crazy :D It was great working with you guys. (=

So I guess I should end it here. There's nothing more to say, other than I'm making up for the fact I'm not taking Dance this year by taking up as much extra things involving dance as possible. So far I have Dance Club, Academy Olympics, and hopefully HollyDay with Joanne (:

K, time to wrap this up! Goodnight, ;]

I need u bad.

Listening to this song made me think about how bad I need certain people in my life.

I thought about how they put up with my dirty mouth, my emotional time bombs, my bitchass complaints, and everything. I don't think they fully realize how much I need them in my life. Each one of them has their own way of making my life more... bright. It actually hurts me to see animosity between people who mean so much to me. I hate being the middleman between tension so slice-able. Just being able to sense the anomosity and hostility between them, makes me sad. I feel like I'm being pulled in two different directions by an invisible string. No one is telling me anything directly, but I can sense that it's either one or the other.

I'm scared, to be honest. I scared someone's going to get hurt. I'm scared I'll lose one of them, and I can't bear to go through that again.

I honestly want to spend equal time with both of them, but I feel like that's not gonna work.

Well, on to a different subject. I've noticed I'm starting to base my blogs on songs. The title is always a song title, and it somehow ties in with something in my blog. I actually like writing through song titles. Just a few words can pretty much sum up what I'm feeling. The song doesn't exactly fit my emotions, but the song title usually does. I'm currently listening to Superstar. It's a nice song.

On a different subject, I'm successful in have a good meal today! Minus the fact I forgot to take my Vitamin-C pill, but that stuff taste nasty anyway. Haha, I ate 3 Special K bars for breakfast; broccoli, cheese, crackers, and water for lunch; and for dinner I had Palabok (:

Well, I'm actually getting really sleepy, so I'll wrap this shit up.

KTHXBYE.

You got me speedin' on the fast lane.

I nearly died on Monday.

But, I'm deeply addicted to the thrill of Daren's reckless driving. He is, by far, the worst driver I've ever set foot in a car with. I should actually be finishing the endless amount of homework piled up on my bed, but I guess procrastinating wouldn't hurt. Okay, maybe it will, but I'm just not in a homework mood. So, does anyone else get those School Loop emails? I just checked it today, and guess what? Apparently I have a D+ in history already. I don't think sitting next to Frank is doing me any good. Agh, it's only the third week of school. I can still make it up. Besides, I'm really beginning to get focused. I do my homework, my classwork, everything. Well, I do it, I just don't exactly finish it. But it's legitimate. I don't understand anything I don't do, which is why I don't do it. My plans to make up my grades is the upcoming creation myth presentation, vocab quiz +vocab squares, and the writing assignment for English; then the partner research for History. I think it was because it was the beginning of the year that I began to slack. Beginning of the year is always so confusing, but I'm starting to get everything on track. I know what to do, when to do it, and how to get around things I don't wanna do.

Away from the topic of school, which is killing me right now. Lately, I've been sorting through my emotions, and I've come to some realizations. I guess the feeling's mutual between us. Merely friends, nothing more nothing less. I got over my feelings for him, but who said flirting with him would hurt (:<

Oh yes, and I miss Samantha Suarez. Bad. Like, I miss her to death. School isn't as exciting since she left. No one to walk me to 2nd, from 2nd, to 3rd, etc. Like, ugh. I will soon dedicate an entire blogpost once I find time, and the right texts, comments, and picture ;D

I miss talking to Kevin F, Ben, and Frank on the phone. They haven't called me in like... 3 days. D: And in those 3 days I've just fallen asleep, whereas I would've fallen asleep laughing about something stupid we talked about. I want Frank or Kevin to get a car, so we can go out for road trips after school (= Ohmygoodness. That would be the best. Rather than getting in a car with Daren, who nearly killed me. But, I'm still addicted to the way he drive. We must go out on a cruise again :D

K, so Scrubs is almost. And as everyone knows, I watch it everynight from 7:00-8:00 on Comedy Central. So I should get to it right about now :]

TAG MOTHERFUCKER!

Once you've been tagged, you have to write a blog with 16 random things, facts, habits or goals about you. At the end choose 10 people to be tagged. Don't forget to leave them a comment ("you're it"). You can't tag the person who tagged you.

1) I only reveal my full name to people I think deserve to know. :]

2) I secretly listen in on conversations in Tagalog. It's funny what people say when they think other people don't understand x'D

3) Some people are baffled when I reveal to them I am not vietnamese or chinese.

4) I don't like listening to myself talk, despite the fact I talk... a lot.

5) I am always on AIM, but I don't even really talk to anyone

6) I can never wear a baggy shirt and baggy shorts. It makes me look funny.

7) "Motherfucker" has been as regular in my vocabulary as the word "the"

8) I rarely get pimples, but when I do, they're huge.

9) I'm only a dancer. No one said anything about choreographing D :

10) When talking to someone, I usually space out and make faces.

11) I sneeze about 6 times every morning without fail during winter and spring.

12) I'm a sucker for seafood : D

13) I've broken my closet door about twice every year for 9years. It's actually a semi-annual thing for the maintenace guys x'D

14) I have the ugliest toes... ever.

15) I have this little split in between my two front teeth.

16) I write my name over and over during the summer just to make sure I didn't forget how to write my name.







I TAG: Everyone and anyone who reads this :] HAVE FUN!

Frank, Ben & Kevin.

Ohmygosh. Kikcit day with my favorite guys! ;D
So like, after break met up with Frank & Kevin F. Uhh sat around with Jenny for a while waiting for the bus, but the bus just kindof just past by the bus stop o__o Jenny left & Frank, Kevin & I went to Q-Cup. Stuupid Frank had to pull out his old birthday present and use it D:<

It's not like I had any money. Oh well, I wanted a crepe, but nooooo. I had no fucking money! Then we walked all the way to Ben's house. Haha, it actually wasn't that far. Kicked it there for a while & ohhmygoshh, I could've sworn Frank was high off'a something because he was dancing around like a complete faahhgg. HAHA, that shit was funny though. Uhh then we walked back to MHS so we can take the bus to Eirene's house. Stupid Kevin left tho. Ommgg, they kept tripping me! & I fell x__x Like, that's horrible! Then we just waited for the bus. Then we got to Eirene's house & that's all. Did I mention the tennis ball? Okay then, I won't mention it x___x LOL!

Daay done. I wanna change up my hair. Haha, bye~!

What boys do at the park xD

Highlight of my day? This picture.

Truth or Dare @ the park , ftw. The stupid things we do during Truth or Dare! xD I have nothing more to say other than , I miss my bestfriend. & People are changing. But I won't waste this post on petty drama and emotions :D

Reminisce ;

Agh, so I've been bored out of my mind lately & I've been reading through my old messages & comments. Man, that hella brings me back. There was a comment from Larry Chan on my birthday. GASH, I hella miss talking to him. He was one sickass chinese kid x'D He hella spammed on my page "HAPPY BIRTHDAY PRECIOUS!" & I remember he gave me roses (: Then I looked even farther back into my comments. Joseph, man. We hella promised to meet each other. & even farther? DAMN, Frank. He hella spammed me like "Iloveyou". Omg, like that shit hella made me cry. I hella miss him. Like, even if I still talk to him, there's something about him that's missing.

Then we dig into my inbox. Jojo. Awwwwh, shit. I remember he heeyyllaaa used to like me. He wrote this letter thing for my & jfhsalkflasf, man. It was so sweet! & Now we don't even talk. And Kristine. I don't even know where we fell out. She was my sister, fo'reaals. & Then Frank again. SHIT. His messages always makes me cry. Like, he was so open with me & I don't feel like he's as open to me anymore /=

With everyone's case, I miss all of them dearly. & I hope one day we can all reconnect, yes? (:
Done day. I'm hungry. Soompi addicted at the moment. HAHA.

>---Cut here ---<

24 hour food run

Free slurpees anyone? Haha, so I went to 7-11 like a million times for some food. x'D I gained weight, I can feel it. GAH, last night was total killer. Made some decisions I shouldn't have made, & hurt people in the process. So , my maams just got home & we're out for another food run! AHAHA, SEE YOUR ASSES @ 7-11!

Ecstaatic

Today was a ridiculously hot day. Tommorow will be too. So will the day after that. This sucks. I got darker )= Haha, so hella fun day today. After school, Gayle came to pick me up then we kicked it with Nina, Johnson & Kevin F. HAHA, hustled some money for Gayle, but naah. She got a bus pass from Kevin. Then we were all waiting at the bus stop then we see Frank going to class late! Omg, so we were all yelling at him like "YOUR ASS IS LATE, GET TO CLASS." Then he calls me & he's all like, "I don't wanna go to school." So I tell him go kickit at my place then. Then I had to hustle money for him because he didn't have any money for the bus. Ohhhmygosh. The bus felt so good! Freaaaakin' AC felt hella good! Sucks we didn't really get to stay there that long. So when we got off the bus, it was heyla hot D:< So as soon as we got to my house, Gayle & I turned on ALL the fans. Stupid Frank was just standing at the door like "You have a billion fans." STUPID, I only have four! Then we just kicked it in my room until it got colder. Then we went to go pick up Eirene. HAHA, Me & Frank were pulling Gayle's fatass on his skateboard. Someone should've taken a picture because it was so cute! Then we got hella tired and lazy, so we just stayed at the Sports Center because they have AC :D Then Eirene met up with us there & we walked back Then me & Eirene went swimming. Woo, that felt gooood. Then yeaaah, that's pretty much it. I've been sleeping a lot :P That's not good. LOL, but it's too hot to do anything but sleep. Omg, I have a bra tan )= Okay well, I should stop here. Lulz, LATE :D


OMG , that looks heeeyyyllaaa good right now! I want sushi!

4th of July

I'm about 2days late, but who cares. 4th of July was BO$$ (: Like, we went over to Eirene's house @ like, 3:00 because Gayle took hella long. Then we hella messed around. We were putting on Eirene's clothes x'D & I think we stretched out her thongs o___o Well yeah, then we just kicked it at Cardoza until hella late. Watched the fireworks with Samantha, Kristina, Marykay, Danica, Greg & Trevor. HAHA, freakin' Danica was all "BARNEY! TINKY WINKY!" Haha, I love that girrrl :D Then I went to kickit with Frank so he could walk me home. Blaaaah, it was like 10:30 & I didn't wanna walk home by myself. JEEZ, him & Rothar are dumbasses ;P Uhh, deeepassrealtalk with Frank. Rothar wouldn't stop being a dickwipe & we walked home :D Then I slept over Eirene's house, HAHA bathroom & sandwiches were fun. Then the next morning, we woke up & we watched War of the Worlds & Signs. HAHA, Gayle got hellaaa scared. It wasn't even that scary. LMFAO, STUPID ALIENS! Then we watched Night at the Museum, then I went home to sleep (:

& That was pretty much my weekend. I have school tmo, so I'ma go plan some chill days :D
LATE!



"Am I sexy yet?"

Out Tanning

Ill day with Gayle, Kristina, & Eirene yesterday! ;D
We went swimming & ohshit, that was hella fun. I think I got sunburned though >:P
We all just sat out in the chairs to even out our tans & everyone was trying to even out their sock +short tans x'D Well, I was trying to get rid of that ugly white line across my back. Don't ask how. LOL! But yeah, hopefully today's hella fun too! Gonna go kickit with Gayle & Eirene and hopefully Frank ;P Haha I'll cut it here ;D

"I make it rain on these hoes"

Happy 12th Birthday Prince

Agh, today would've been my little brother's 12th birthday /=
If he was still here, I would've whooped his ass by now.
So I don't think a lot of people know what happened to my kid brother.
He was a stillborn, which suucked. I was like, 3 & I was hella excited to have a little brother, but then they told me I wasn't gonna have a little brother anymore. I was just 3 and I really didn't know what was happening so I was just like "Awwh, okay."
LOOL, my mom was gonna name that sucker Prince. GAYNAME! Lmfao. I'll still diss my little brother like he was here, 'cus I would've been his older sister & I would've been able to punk on him (:< Oh, I'm evil. Well I hope he's all good up there.

Mm, so shit sucks lately. But I'll put that off for another day. For now, I think I'll continue photowhoring :]

Sunrise

I can't believe I freakin' missed it. So like, he called me @ about 1:00am last night. & I told him to keep me awake because I wanted to watch the sunrise at around 5:00am. Douchebag let me fall asleep at like 4:00! Omfg, and I was an hour so close! x'D Oh well. Hopefully I can stay up tonight and see it. I remember watching it with Gayle last year because we pulled an allnighter. Man, that shit was whaackass. Ah that's about it (: Oh, here's a video of Joesar Alva freestyling(= He got some maad skill!

Funkanometry on MTV?!

I don't like waiting. I really don't. So stop making me wait, it's annoying.
Anyways, anyone else remember ABDC last week? The MTV's best dancer shit they do? I was surprised when I saw Kyle Hanagami & Mariel Martin of FunkanometrySF dance! I wanted to find the video, and after a week of searching through their videos, I found it!

I tried self-teaching my self this routine. Epic-motherfucking-fail.
That's about it.
Actually, I got my grades today. I got A's B's D's & C's. Anyone see a pattern?

Anemia .

Tommorow I have to be out of the house! Stupid people are gonna be working on the faulty plumbing. Plus the water's gonna be turned off so I can't pee properly. Ah, this is gonna be lame. Well hopefully I'll clear up that bet I lost :P So, I'll wake up walk over to 711, get my Arizona... and Frank's . Then drop it off @ his house, then walk over to Eirene's, go get her, then walk over to Gayle's house & hang! Idk about Saturday. I hella wanna chill with Kuya Chris & Jomar. Foreals, we hella said we were gonna watch Get Smart, but no. Those freaks had to go to Reno D:< Oh well. Then maybe take a Funkanometry class with Ate Joanne. Beginner, because Emerson is cuuuute (:

Oh yeah, hella kickass day with Gayle , Kristina, & Eirene x'D
But I was sick :P I think I do have anemia, but this is gaay.

Tummy's being a bitch. OUTSKIEES.

^ This picture is missing Gayle, because she's the talented photgrapher! x'D

Tum Tum

My tummy is slowly punishing me for all the times it cried for nourishment & I ignored her. Yes, my tummy's a her. Why? Because I'm a her. Make a stupid joke & tummy will fatslap you. Tummy has feelings too! That's why she's punishing me!

Okay, so how exactly is she making my entire life miserable?

I've been nauseated lately. My mom thinks I'm pregnant. Then she said I was bulimic. Then she just said I was eating too much. Top that? My tummy's been telling my head to start hurting and my body to get tired and sleepy. I DON'T THINK THAT'S NORMAL! I pretty much gag after I eat. & She tortures me by making me dry heave. JhfjklFHd! I don't like this at all. I took Pepto-Bismol because I thought it was just as upset stomach, but I don't think I'd have a migrane and fatigue if it was an upset stomach. Dude, this suuccks. I don't wanna get stomach sick! ):< Well I think I'll go try to make Tummy not so mad at me anymore. RICE AND SPAM, HERE I COME!


^ That's a detailed picture of what a NORMAL stomach should look like D:

Dreaming! (=

So I've been watching hellaaa MTV lately. Which is weird 'cus I hardly watch TV... well only @ night because only the stupid shows are on during the day. HAHA, well like I was thinking about... PROM! Holy shit (: I wanna go with this one guuyyy. Omfg, I remember my old best friend and I promised to go to prom with each other! Like that's gonna happen know. He's got his new girl -___- BITCHASS! x'D Loll, well yeah. It looks fuunn :P I wanna go to prom! HAHA, I fckinngg wish! Lolzz. Well I'm done. It's very hot. I'm baking & burnt. OFFIT!

Shizznatzzz

Chillin' with the cousins yesterday was bombaasss! (:

ALRIGHT!

I'm cleaning up my act!

Staying strong, and not worrying! (=

Fuck.

I don't know where to start.

Emotions are running like a waterfall, and I can't stop it. He means the world to me, but he just don't seem to care about anything I say to him. I feel like his girl is his all or nothing. I don't even fucking matter anymore. But hey, that's how guys are. & I hate it to death. Once he gets to talking to her, he cuts connections. Like, straight up. No phone calls, no IMs, not even just to check if I'm alive or not. I hate it. He only comes to me when he needs something, or when he doesn't have anyone. It's like, why even fucking bother. You don't give a fuck. I want him to grow up. & Understand the people he's hurting. He's way too fucking young to understand what the fuck he's doing. He's getting involved in mature situations and he's not mature enough to handle it. I mean, he's got a main girl , but then he has like 4 girls on the side. What pisses me off? He considers me one of his sides. Naah, I ain't. He doesn't even fucking care enough for me to be a side. I'm just the best friend that tries to keep him from fucking up, but he's to stupid to listen.

Ah, ranting won't help. I should go talk to him ,

It's Kind of Like.

I'm losing my innocence.

I've been confined under a blanket for a while, and I can't seem to find the courage to come out. Ah, whatever. Shit will blow over. School's finally over. Major emphasis on finally. Ugh, but I'm back in summer school next week. Agh, I haven't been feeling so perky lately. Like, I'm in no mood to do anything I'd normally be doing. D:< I'm like morbidly depressed. & I'm jealous. Of the whole he like her, but not me thing. It's like, WHY THE FUCK CAN'T HE FUCKING LIKE ME! Who's the girl that stood by his side? Through all the rejection & heartbreak? WTF. I'm just hella sick of shit, I'm gnna give up. I've given in, and given it my all. None of it worked. Screw it. I'm done venting about that. I'm just sick & tired of it tho. Oh well. There's a tub of ice cream waiting for me. ]':

Finals: First Period

Day one of finals. I'm posting via Sidekick, as always when I'm at school. It took me about 45 min. to finish a 100 question multiple choice test. Ah, this is lame. )= I'm stuck doing nothing and quiet for another hour, or until everyone else is done. And that's usually until the end of the period... in another hour! Lame, lame, lame! I want to get my friend's cards, but he's like two seats over so I can't get his backpack. Duuude, this is so boring, I hate finals! Oh well. I should go look up some info for my essay next period. Blogging won't help me solve my problems. Hahahaha~

Via Sidekick pt. II

Shit, hella fucking boring in 5th period. Well no one's not really doing anything. We're hella just chillin' and shit. Haha, fucking Deren's hella narrating and shit , it's hella funny! Ms. G's getting hella mad. LOOLL! The commercials are hella gay. Oh yeah, we're watching T.V. Because Ms. G is in no mood to teach. Man, but this shit's hella fucking funny though! Ugh, it still hasn't hit me that school's ending. Samantha, Becca & I were talking about it on our way to 1st period. Nothing feels really, emotional about it. Well, I guess the Seniors would be, but not me, or any of the underclassman I know. Ughh, it's just like last year: an emotionless end. Err, that's what we called it last year. Well, I'm hoping I can make the best out of everything! (= 5th's about to end. I should stop.

Via Sidekick

I'm at school, listening to some debates about topics that have been debated over for years. We're supposed to write down at least 2 question for the debate. I don't understand anything. At all. My, Kevin Yao, and I are sitting in the back all confused and shit. Haha, this shit is actually funny. Uhm, but like yeah. Hopefully I'll get a good grade for this -__- I hella need it D: Cut it here. Late.

Sockhop SF

So like, anyone wanna go?
I heard it was gonna be hella sick. Like hella dancers from all over Cali are coming (:
Tickets are like $25 presale, though. I doubt I can afford it ]: AHHH, I heard freakin' Jabbawockeez were going. I think Kaba Modern's deff gonna be there, 'cus they work with Funkanometry. AH, dance hype. Well if some miracle came and I was able to go, damn. That'd be like... shit.

Pee.

I need to go pee, but my bathroom's being surgically altered again ):
Rawr, don't they know people in the house have small bladders and
ironically drink a lot of liquids?! Oh well. I'll go to that other apart-
ment to pee. Lol, anyone remember last year? & The other apart-
ment? Buwahaha, that was funny. We should've kept that place.
On another note, I have no clue what to do for Gay Marriage.
Goodness, I had to choose opposing Gay Marriage. This is very
GAY! Ironically, much. Ohwell, I'm watching America's Best Dance
Crew. I'm inspired. I must be able to join! (; Okay, well I should
continue what I was doing before this... nothing.

I'm Stressed.

Between researching for my debate, and doing alla' Castro's shit.
Ugh, I guess this is what I get for slacking off.
Man, this is laaaammmmeeee, beyond fucking anything!

Looll, but chilling with my sister today was cool.
Except it put me behind on all my work.
Oh my gosh. Lame.

I guess I'll turn Castro's shit in late.
He doesn't give a fuuuccckkk. (:
& I'll bring in paper and shit. Muwahah.
Guaranteed C+ or something.

I should've gotten a partner or something ]:
Ah, sucks I don't really talk to anyone in Castro's class.
'Cept Troy & Mitchell.
But they have each other ]':

I need to take a break.
I'm confirming tomorrow!
I like my dress. Haha okay.

I'll go to sleep. I need it.

KTHXBYE!<3

My House Smells Like Food

My house smells like food.
Steaming scent of Filipino food.

Fish, rice rice, sausage, rice rice, egg, rice rice, spam, rice rice, garlic, rice rice.
Smells like a Fob House.

Well, it smells like Philippines.
Thanks to my dad. Who continues to eat this mornings left overs. [Which happens to be be rice, fish, egg, sausages, and spam]

SK's blinking. Too lazy to check.
Probably Vinny, or that message Troy's waiting for.
Either way, I'm too lazy to check.

Kuya's coming back tommorow! Can't wait to see him all jet-lagged and culture shocked!

I should finish all my projects. Blogging isn't helping much. |;