The opposite of insomnia

Normally, I would fall asleep so late, it would piss me off that I couldn't stay awake during class. Nowadays, I fall asleep so early, it pisses me off that I'm too tired to do my homework. Then I wake up needing more sleep and then I'm too lazy to finish my homework.

It's like a stupid chain of lack of sleep where I lose either way.

Well anyway, I'm getting back into the habit of trying to blog more often. I feel the need to frequently vent out any distracting emotions. It's like a cup. The more we fill the cup, the fuller it gets. Eventually, if it's completely full everything else will just spill out.

This is a way to just empty out my cup of water, so everything doesn't spill out.

I brought my big pink knockoff carebear today :D Everyone thought I got it from a guy. It was funny seeing people's reactions when they see someone with a stuffed animal. It's like an instant, "WHO'S THE GUY WHO GAVE IT TO YOU?!?!??!!" It was to be expected that I get bombarded with questions. It was fun.

Ohyes, and our presentation for English was today. My goodness, Thomas. You make my laugh like crazy :D It was great working with you guys. (=

So I guess I should end it here. There's nothing more to say, other than I'm making up for the fact I'm not taking Dance this year by taking up as much extra things involving dance as possible. So far I have Dance Club, Academy Olympics, and hopefully HollyDay with Joanne (:

K, time to wrap this up! Goodnight, ;]

I need u bad.

Listening to this song made me think about how bad I need certain people in my life.

I thought about how they put up with my dirty mouth, my emotional time bombs, my bitchass complaints, and everything. I don't think they fully realize how much I need them in my life. Each one of them has their own way of making my life more... bright. It actually hurts me to see animosity between people who mean so much to me. I hate being the middleman between tension so slice-able. Just being able to sense the anomosity and hostility between them, makes me sad. I feel like I'm being pulled in two different directions by an invisible string. No one is telling me anything directly, but I can sense that it's either one or the other.

I'm scared, to be honest. I scared someone's going to get hurt. I'm scared I'll lose one of them, and I can't bear to go through that again.

I honestly want to spend equal time with both of them, but I feel like that's not gonna work.

Well, on to a different subject. I've noticed I'm starting to base my blogs on songs. The title is always a song title, and it somehow ties in with something in my blog. I actually like writing through song titles. Just a few words can pretty much sum up what I'm feeling. The song doesn't exactly fit my emotions, but the song title usually does. I'm currently listening to Superstar. It's a nice song.

On a different subject, I'm successful in have a good meal today! Minus the fact I forgot to take my Vitamin-C pill, but that stuff taste nasty anyway. Haha, I ate 3 Special K bars for breakfast; broccoli, cheese, crackers, and water for lunch; and for dinner I had Palabok (:

Well, I'm actually getting really sleepy, so I'll wrap this shit up.

KTHXBYE.

You got me speedin' on the fast lane.

I nearly died on Monday.

But, I'm deeply addicted to the thrill of Daren's reckless driving. He is, by far, the worst driver I've ever set foot in a car with. I should actually be finishing the endless amount of homework piled up on my bed, but I guess procrastinating wouldn't hurt. Okay, maybe it will, but I'm just not in a homework mood. So, does anyone else get those School Loop emails? I just checked it today, and guess what? Apparently I have a D+ in history already. I don't think sitting next to Frank is doing me any good. Agh, it's only the third week of school. I can still make it up. Besides, I'm really beginning to get focused. I do my homework, my classwork, everything. Well, I do it, I just don't exactly finish it. But it's legitimate. I don't understand anything I don't do, which is why I don't do it. My plans to make up my grades is the upcoming creation myth presentation, vocab quiz +vocab squares, and the writing assignment for English; then the partner research for History. I think it was because it was the beginning of the year that I began to slack. Beginning of the year is always so confusing, but I'm starting to get everything on track. I know what to do, when to do it, and how to get around things I don't wanna do.

Away from the topic of school, which is killing me right now. Lately, I've been sorting through my emotions, and I've come to some realizations. I guess the feeling's mutual between us. Merely friends, nothing more nothing less. I got over my feelings for him, but who said flirting with him would hurt (:<

Oh yes, and I miss Samantha Suarez. Bad. Like, I miss her to death. School isn't as exciting since she left. No one to walk me to 2nd, from 2nd, to 3rd, etc. Like, ugh. I will soon dedicate an entire blogpost once I find time, and the right texts, comments, and picture ;D

I miss talking to Kevin F, Ben, and Frank on the phone. They haven't called me in like... 3 days. D: And in those 3 days I've just fallen asleep, whereas I would've fallen asleep laughing about something stupid we talked about. I want Frank or Kevin to get a car, so we can go out for road trips after school (= Ohmygoodness. That would be the best. Rather than getting in a car with Daren, who nearly killed me. But, I'm still addicted to the way he drive. We must go out on a cruise again :D

K, so Scrubs is almost. And as everyone knows, I watch it everynight from 7:00-8:00 on Comedy Central. So I should get to it right about now :]